Monday, December 1, 2008

Who says summer flings can't last forever?

Blog-Stalking. We're all equally guilty of don't think for a second that you are an exception to this form of borderline creepiness. Just kidding! But really, to begin with I guess I will start off by explaining the reasoning behind my decision to join the blogspot blackhole!

July 17, 2007-I thought I had this whole life and love thing pretty much all figured out. Little did I know, I really didn't have a clue.
July 18, 2007-enter Chad Moody, small town boy from Elk Ridge, Utah dancing shirtless to "Walk it Out" at a bonfire on a secluded beach near Turtle Bay in Hawaii. Introduced to this 18-year-old heart throb by my dollface friends who were friends with Chad at BYU Hawaii that summer, Savanna, Bridgette, and Kalli, blowing my entire savings account on a senior trip to visit them in Hawaii with Jamie and Megan for a week, was the most unregrettable decision I have ever made.

We stayed out talking-yes, literally talking-until 3 or 4 in the morning at this attempted campout on the beach, until everyone was sick of being rained on and went our separate ways. Until the next day, that is! haha I would love to bore you even more with the day by day breakdown of the week we spent together in hawaii, but one of the highlights was probably our first kiss! It was on a balcony overlooking Waikiki! It was and always will be THE most memorable first kiss of my life! It was perfect! He was perfect! but ooh wait, I was going home to Arizona in 4 days, and he was living in hawaii, going back home to Utah, school at BYU, and preparing to go on a mission. I can remember thinking when we were saying goodbye to everyone that I would honestly have done anything to stay! My biggest regrets became things that prevented me from getting to be with Chad! Not applying to BYU-Provo, not having enough money saved to have gone to BYU-Hawaii that summer even though I was accepted and planned to room with Bridgette! Just so many things! It honestly just felt like one of those lame EFY experiences where you meet some of the most amazing people, or the most amazing guy and you're just saddened by the blatant truth that you will most likely never see that person again in your life.

Lucky for me, I didn't have to forget about him. And I don't think I could have if I tried. Somehow, someway we pulled it off. LONG DISTANCE. Living proof that it is possible, people! In all honesty, while every relationship is different, I know that couples who can survive long distance situations and are faithful and completely honest with each other, fortify some of the strongest relationships by becoming best friends. Only being able to see each other once or twice a month, if that, wasn't easy, but it made us appreciate each other and know we were both in it for the long run.

One of the hardest things for me, was the fact that so many people, friends and family, didn't take me seriously, especially because I was always (hate to admit it) the kind of person who cared way too much what other people thought of me and other people's advice and opinions were seemingly better than my own. I have always been a people-pleaser, because in truth, I was indecisive, and it made me happy to do whatever made other people happy. So, I guess the turning point in my life was deciding for myself that I wasn't just "in love with IDEA of a never-ending summer fling with some boy I met in Hawaii." People who still think that's the case with me now waiting 100% faithfully for Chad while he is on his mission in Argentina are kidding themselves! I'm not in love with the "idea" of chad and me getting married in the Laie Temple where we met after he gets home, I'm not in love with the "idea" of being with my best friend forever, or the "idea" of proving to everyone that I can wait and not fall for or kiss one other boy for the next 18 months. To put it simply, what I am is completely head-over-heels truly purely in love with Chad Moody. When I see the temple, all I see is Chad. Call us stupid, crazy, ridiculous, whatever seems most fitting, but we are married at heart. I can't wait for Chad to take me to the temple! He makes me the happiest little school girl on the planet and he may be all the way in Argentina, but he makes me fall in love with him all over again every single day without fail. I may only be 19, but I consider myself lucky to have already found the one I want to be with for FOREVER. And knowing he loves me the same in return is the single most amazing, beautiful feeling I have ever known. I never ever believed in the possibility of knowing exactly how you will feel about someone or something in the future, but I guess all it took was one person to change that. Chad and Anais for eternity? That's "reality."